The sacrifices we make...

Well, I have been pretty busy the last little while. I have had lots to do and not much time to do it. My weekends are now pretty much booked... I have taken on a second job. I have talked things over with my wife and she is supportive of me but fears I am burning the candle at both ends. I fear that too. I told her the only thing I can do is try. We have a debt that we are responsible for above and beyond our mortgage. We will have to come up with some money for a car for her soon and I really want to avoid financing if I can. So that is why I have got this second job. I am hoping I can deal with it and make the best of my time with my boys as it will be reduced because of working on the weekends. I guess I just have to make the best of the time that I do have with them and make it the best time I can with them until things get better for me. The weird part is that I am not doing this to get more I am doing this so my kids don't have to deal with less. Not that they are spoiled terribly or anything but I just want to be able to give them all the things I can when they ask for them. I still make them wait for stuff and they don't get everything they ask for but it's nice to be able to get them stuff... Fuck I don't know...it's complicated...

So that's where I am lost and picking up second jobs and trying to be the big family provider...