So with one weekend down

Several billion more to go. I am learning some very interesting things and feel good about everything that I am doing right now. It just feels right. You know how you can second guess all your choices and always wonder if what you did in the past is the right thing? Well that all stopped for me yesterday, I know I am doing the right things and I am where I am supposed to be and who I am supposed to be with and have all the things I am supposed to have. I am who I am supposed to be. For a very long time I have always felt uncomfortable in my own skin. Sure I may have not shown it but yesterday I felt like I was finally me. I don't know what it was because I didn't do anything really different I worked, then did a tech call after work and then came home and hung out with my wife for the night. Nothing out of the the ordinary just me being me... So I don't know why I felt better about it. But then again my thoughts and processes are odd to begin with so maybe I am just finally figuring out how I think... who knows...

My writing is suffering though, I have not put finger to keyboard in a creative sense for some time now... I miss it. I will have to make more time for it some where... Now just because I haven't written anything doesn't mean I am not still building the story in my head... kind of like high school when I would write a whole essay the night before... how long does it take to type out 300-400 pages? 48 hours? I should get to it if I am going to make my time line... sigh the bane of my existence is procrastination

And the cold rages on...

Well maybe raging isn't appropriate but it is still lingering... I am still stuffy and some what miserable... my poor family. But everyone knows that no one can be as sick as a man with a head cold...

Well I am continuing along with my J.K. Rowling marathon I am on to the sixth book for the third time :) I believe I have read them in succession at least twice so this should be the third time. I am looking forward to the final chapter in the series. It will be bittersweet I think as even though it is technically a children's story very few other stories have captured the imagination like it. I find that I a really looking forward to the upcoming movies and how they adapt so much into a film that can be seen in one sitting.

I have been thinking a lot on my own novel and if it will ever come to fruition... I think I just need the discipline to sit and write which admittedly I am lacking right now as I have so many other distractions at the moment. Well that and my drive can be waning at times... well most of the time... fourth child syndrome I guess...

Anyway I am off to blow my nose for the ninety seventh time today...

Later...